I'm irrevocably in love with this funky song! It's so groovy, you can really dance to it anywhere - from the beach to the mass @ church! So, thankyou, Alex Bencio..... ya hilarious Fillipino! =P
Well, let me condense everything into a nutshell from the events that happened on saturday... It was pretty darn hectic.. My gosh. I think I can now die from the fun of unpredictability... T___T"
6.30am - Biking, Walking, swimming --- then, walking and biking. With little Anna
10.25am- As soon as i got home in my daggy trackies - sis from the city called me to go markets
10.30am- FAIRFIELD MARKETS - Bought dresses & a nice top PLUS my witch costume
12.00pm- CHILLAX @ HOME
1.00pm - head off to Mena's the Beautician in Casula
1.30pm to 4.00pm - Ate @ Connie's place and slept in her lounge room... far away from Casula
5.00pm - Church (my jeans kept falling down =.=")
6.00pm to 11.00pm - Gone to Teresa's place for funeral anniversary mass and drove around with Justin
..& 5 of 6 buttons of the new top went missing in wrestling matches, involving heels
11.30pm to 12.30am - Got home. On the phone with a dear friend
12.30am to 1.30am - Msn :)
then Sleep ETCCC..
This saturday is just like any other saturday, except now, I'm doing what i truly want and i'm happy about it. I dont care about what other people think anymore cause "you only live once"(Chrissy!Love you chickababessssss). For example: After a year of wanting to get into a car with Justin driving it, i finally did and it was great friggin fun! It's sort of good that i didn't tell him how much fun i had, in case he did some terrifying wheely stunt...T___T". Omg, my heart froze when the car was thrown into a U-turn drift--- It was like, i was in the tofu car from Intitial D except this car was black and sexier haha.Ohh, it was fun and exhilarating nonetheless! :D:D:D:D:D. And who cares? ;) .. Oh maybe my mum. But what she doesnt know won't hurt her.
I RECKON...To do what you want is the best kind of feeling you can NEVER imagine, you only get it if you DO what you want. So therefore, I'll be staying at school-- cause i dont give a rats ass about anything but my close friends and my Uai. My motivation to do well will come from my eagerness to beat this one irritating guy: Mr. I-Like-to-make-you-feel-wretched (also known as, that ganga that won't ever shut up about pessimistic shit in your own head, "You cant do it","Teh, think about the risks, you're not strong enough") If it had a face, I'd duck-tape it with a million rolls.... And! i love the feeling of -- Not caring about what other people expect of me, I like the feeling of what i expect of myself. Agree with me? ;)
I feel like I've exploded into a world of freedom where no one can stop you except your limits, put there by the compliments of good ol' morals.(Thankyou babes! I love you ahaha). Think I've lost the plot? T__T" Nah Ah ! I still have my morals, just most of my fear of doing what i want has totally evaporated and condensed into skittles -- and bear in mind, I'll never eat them up again! Even if i do what i want, I still understand the consequences of my actions, so maybe that'll answer your questions if ive evolved into a emotionless,senseless--- Robot? (Oh no offense Wall-e.. You're lovely). Like, not so long ago--Oh a few days to be exact =O. I did something i wanted to do for a very long time, i knew "he" was going to be upset, but I've been upset for the whole year because i thought i was doing the right thing for everyone else and myself. LOL. Turned out to be for everyone but me :P -- and because of that, I probably lost a friend. But i had to do it.
I'd rather not lie to myself for the benefit of a particular person/peoples for even a longer time. "A longer time", Oh Shit.. That's even more depressing! LOL. So right at this particular moment --- I've done all i can and I'm waiting for an answer and it sorta sucks =P just waiting around feeling sort of feeling helpless. I just want the answer really," Yes" or "No" nothing else. I dont mind if its good or bad --I dont expect anything, or really insist on anything. Because it really isn't fair if you don't consider what someone else wants Haha :)
It feels like i'm becoming a better person for myself instead of a good person for everyone else. I mean, i still think i'm good for the people i care about but, i was just bad to myself because i was scared of the doing 50/50 risks. Friggin society..their expectations, their stereotypes, their conventions can all die now,oh I've let it get to me enough. Now it's time to kick it's big fat bottox! *SMASHbanggggggggcrackk*
Anyway, that's enough insight into the complex mind of an average asian teenager. Tragically boring aye? I know, it's in dire need of some exciting things =p. Hahaha - If i could re-act Romeo and Juliet to create some entertainment, i would! But Mr.Romeo doesn't exist or he's being difficult =) Soo, now it's time to fold my mind up ( as portrayed in the given image displayed above). LOL
Tell me about your mind ;) Hahaha. yeah yeah STUPID ASS question. But you know what? I dont mind or care :)
Hahaa.. See you Chickas & Fellas. Much Love & Happiness!
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