My cousin drives a nice car...... How could I not know that?!?!

photo: My baby nephew Vincent. The favourite fatty bub of the family!

This afternoon i was standing on a busy street - in front of an asian grocery store - my inquisitive gaze was intensely directed at a box of Pawpaw fruit. I was wondering whether or not that big yellow one tasted the sweetest. Some car on the street starts honking. Curiously, i twisted my neck around to see where it was coming from - some nice ass black car was parked about 10 metres away from me. The honking kept going. I squinted at the tinted window - and all i saw was this black guy, maybe African.... This is freaky... is he honking at me?! HOLY SH*T !

My eyes quickly dart for the Pawpaw fruit again Maybe he'll stop honking.. i obviously don't know him... WRONGGGGGGGGGGG ! He's becoming impatient - I twirl around and stare at him. Same African dude. Danger? I'll just stay put right here looking at fruit. 10 seconds later I hear the honking again. What does this guy want with me?! I'm squiting again, trying to make out the face through that dark tinted window. He's smiling and waving ... Oh.. maybe i do know him? Cautiously i approached the car.. and my heart suddenly felt so light when i saw my cute little nephew Vincent in the back seat smiling eagerly at me.

Cousin: Hey !
Me: I swear i didn't know it was you .... thought you were some stranger... it must be your windows seriously...*distracted by Vincent* HELLO BABY ! Wanna give aunty a kiss? ;)
Cousin: What are you doing here?
Me: Buying stuff with Teresa. Oh she's come out now.
******
Teresa: Who's that? *wtf look*
******
Me: SEE I TOLD YOU ! She didn't even recognise you either. I thought you were an african dude.
Cousin: ....
Me: Ok see you bye ! *turns to vincent & tickles his belly* BYE BYE BABYYYY


My cousin in all likelihood must think that I'm an idiot :(.. sighh...
who cares, as long as i get to cuddle my cutie nephew then im happy !

My future :)

photos: Future colleagues .. WOO !

I'm not too fussed about my future - i know that i want, and i know how to get it. Big deal if I don't make it into Uni next year thank god you can take an exam to qualify for this midwifery degree even if you're not at school. I suppose that's the reason as to why i am not as stressed as others. Yes i agree that university degree is definitely a beneficial boost in various careers - however there's no need to completely break down if you don't get in the first time and whatnot. If you don't get what you want, you might as well propose for an interview, take the qualification exam and enjoy a gap year :) The positives of this is that you'll be able work, save more money for travelling and immerse yourself in a kinda of freedom that rarely appears thrice in your life.

This is what i want out of my career:

1. Obtain a Bachelor of Midwifery
2. Obtain qualifications in pregnancy massaging & facial therapy - women loved to feel relaxed & pampered ! ;)
3. Do events management on the side for fun - I've always loved that ! There's nothing better than a PARTY OFF THE WALL !
4. Obtain an advanced diploma of business management from TAFE
5. If i really enjoy being a midwife then I'd might as well train up to be an obstetrician

and finally my biggest goal: Open up a midwifery clinic. :) It'll be hard no doubt - but it's possible. And I'm pretty determined to make it happen !

ox.

p.s. If there are grammatical errors or any sentences that "shouldn't be written in such a fashion" - just over look it. I didn't get much sleep last night ! Someone just had to plant a frenzy of rather visual and tactile images in my head...

Really, REALLY !

photo: This will make the ladies laugh and the fellas cry :) ENJOY!







Here's a series of interesting facts that I've chanced upon this month:

• My cousin-in-law just gave birth to a cute baby girl !
• Lentini & I have hardly have anything in common -- yet we're so oddly harmonious
• Whenever i give speeches I always get laughs --particularly when I'm trying to be serious.
• My younger brother is terrified of ghosts... especially when they're accompanied by dramatic music.
• My mum has always thought I had a fat physique due to Vietnamese ideals. (The ideal beautiful Vietnamese girl is a stick) One morning she got a glimpse of me in just my stockings & tight singlet top and looked surprised -"Tai sao con sexy qua vay?" OVER & OVER AGAIN LOL. Oh, for those who are Vietnamese and can not read, it simply means "Why are you so sexy?" or "Why is my daughter so sexy?"
• Congrats to Tessa's family ! They now have a new bouncing baby cousin, Kiana !
• Incestuous relationships and rape victims seem to be the new BUZZ of the world lately... how horrible :(
• Megan Fox is actually quite ruthless and bitchy.

The photo says it all.

photo: Countries in Conflict.....



LOL.

How do I love thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Beautiful, enchanting, mesmerizing, endearing, delightful, sensational - I love it.
Words are such powerful tools. It takes a remarkable skill & deep understanding to bring poems like these to life. The day I'd write a poem like this...... would most likely occur after my wedding night.
You'd never want to scare off the poor bloke with such deep emotions prior to eternal commitment LOL !

The Pact.

photo: Mid-October of 2008. I went backless so I'd fit the criteria to wear that nice dress @ the PATS formal. I haven't been to the beach since :(

I can't be bothered writing all that "omg, i haven't blogged in so long! I have to start updating this soon!".
Now onto more interesting matters... Wow! We're already in mid-September !Hahaha, that means the HSC exams shall commence in exactly 5 weeks from this dayforward. Oh please God, please do not allow the exams to throttle us - Oh and for anyone who is of asian ethnicity,DO NOT i repeat DO NOT SCREW IT UP. Your mum & dad will harm you.

Okay, I'll just focus on 1 thing in this blog which is "The Pact" which is the whole point of even writing this up - and no it's not Jodi Picoult's bestseller guys. Here's the story: Late last year Vee & I made a bargain after our fail attempts with particular someones (i'd rather not name them), so the rule was:

If you see/date someone - that's an instant loss of $20 for the loser and an instant gain of $20 to the person who remains single.

Everyone, including myself, thought Vee would lose the bet - COME ON, she still had the right to freedom, going out, partying, meeting people and whatnot whereas i was grounded from January till June. Look at the odds ! Hahaha, Life was set. I was going to get $20 foh shizzle... almost everyone we knew doubted her chances of winning the bet - I was too conveniently grounded and that instantly put me at the winning end...



I ended up paying Vee $20 last week...


It's funny how things turn out... the second I'm relieved from this house I lose the bet LOL whereas Vee has in all likelihood left her house about 100 times this year. But it was worth it :)
I'm a happy girl haha.

The Bakery

photo: An epic-looking Vietnamese pork roll

There's this man who works at a local bakery near my school who likes to give me discounts. I didn't really think much of it until TODAY -

This morning i had my 3 hour Mathematics trial exam. Oh boy it was hard. If the HSC is spewing out that kind of shit -- I'm going to be terribly antisocial for the next 2 months ! Anyway, after the exam - My friend, Stephanie, & I headed out to eat (a few of the other were at Tommy's). I like honey pork/honey chicken mixed roll - & i ordered that. The man was nice, giving me discounts - charging me less and whatnot - it probably comes out of his paycheck .. who knows, talking to me in vietnamese and all but most of all - he remembers me ! I seldom go there since he started working & I haven't been there for maybe 2-3 months ?!

My friend Phillip pointed out to our friends - "Yeah, He was full like - enthusiastic about her - his smile reached his eyes ! LOL". Later I felt a little thirsty so i left my friends for a second and browsed about Tommy's refrigerators for any good beverage -but that was soon disrupted by a cluster of my friends signalling "GO NEXT DOOR & BUY IT THERE!"

I presumed that Tommy's had "rip off" prices. I trudged back to the bakery - & came back with a discounted ice coffee Oak and a complete understanding of Phillip's perspectives. Ohhh nooo, that middle aged man might indeed be infatuated with me :( Phillip then suggested that He and I walk,his arm wrapped around my shoulders, past the bakery to make the man jealous - but i declined, my reason being that I'd risk a "stop in discounts" yet the real reason was that i might cause someone else to get very angry ... =d



A possible future family car. LOLL

oxox

The Coconut Family - 6 years of beautiful friendships.

Cathy's 16th Birthday :) We're as happy as ever !

It’s 3.59am at the moment & I can’t sleep – it’s almost certainly because I completed 6 hours worth of maths exercises & past papers in preparation for next Monday’s 2 unit exam LOL I’m keen to get my rank up =). LOL Funnily i finished that at 11.30pm - my brain must be feeling an overload of info and most likely needs a fair bit of time to process all that "jazz". But that’s beside the point, I’ve been meaning to write this for a while – the only time I’ve written something like this occurred during my year 9 days... that was so freaking long ago! During this time last year I had involved myself with one of the biggest conflicts an individual could ever find themselves fighting with: Close friends. When I look back at that time, I feel the urge to cringe – it wasn’t a pleasant time for any of us, especially you, Vee. You and I had suffered the most. I am so glad we talked that day, even if it was 5 months of separation, and I’m so glad we’ve finally sort things through and that you understood what I was going through. I just feel like a colossal moron to even think that we didn’t solve it any sooner. I must admit that I was an asshole. And I must admit that I am now an epically happy bouncing ball =)

Now, CCNF, or shall I say “coconut family” hahaha. High school would not have been so exciting, delightful, loving, enjoyable, fun-loving, creative, rowdy or even the slightest dramatic without you guys. Yes you (alphabetical order) Bryan, Cathy, Chris, Khanh, Rowena, Thanh and Vee! Thankyou so much for granting me 6 years of intense, rollercoaster-like fun-loving awesomeness! Thankyou for bearing with me, especially during last year and early this year – I really really sincerely appreciate it! I know I have changed – but, I’m fighting this for everyone, especially you guys and my family, and thankyou so much for your support. I’m trying my best to be myself and refrain myself from slipping into it again and taking it out on…myself.. and you… and everyone else… – it almost ruined so much that we had. I’m gonn’ cry =(

I’ll start on off with:

Bryan ~
Where can I start? First off, I don’t remember how I met you! Or when we even began talking to each other =) It must have been during one of Ms. Plant’s crazy antics during year 8 – I really have forgotten but know this, I can forget that but I can never forget you. Though we’re not close, like you and Rowena, I still love the fact that you’re always there :) I love hearing “Hi Margarita!” every morning at roll call – I know I don’t show it sometimes, I’m probably in a numb state those mornings. Haha. Bryan, I love it when you’re happy, you have the most unique bouts of laughter, they just burst out with this awesome life force, and it’s always accompanied by a red face – it’s so endearing and I’m going to miss seeing it everyday. I regret that I didn’t take more time out to get to know you over the years cause I still think there’s many more splendid layers to you (which Rowena only probably knows, LOL we all envy her !). What I don’t like is seeing you sad - =( seriously Bryan, I want to help if I can, I know that sounds selfish – but I dislike seeing you that way. You deserve to be so happy! You’re incredibly hard working and it’s very hard to come by anyone like that in our day & age. Aww, I’ll miss you dude. Let’s break a pole again !

Cathy ~
LOL ! I remember the days where we used to sit on that hill, watching a cute boy play handball and draw stick figures of him in Rowena’s visual arts diary. Babe you were mesmerised for weeks ! haha, I love you. Woman, you have an excellent memory, you remember me from Sunday School and you remember throwing airplanes with me in year 7. Cathy, you just make me laugh full stop. Whether you’re fleeing away from a flock of evil pigeons or when your HI 5 is left hanging. LOL. If it’s one thing that I really admire you for, it’d be your unwavering honesty. You’re a true friend and a lovely sophisticated lady with a killer sense of humour. Girl, you’re going to top the world! Thankyou for making me smile all these years, you have generously helped me without knowing it. Cathy, I thank you for being so understanding for the times when I needed it the most. Thankyou for confronting me when I needed a slap back to reality – even though it may not seem much to you, it had meant a great deal to me. These years have been a blast with you Yoo Rin =) I’ve loved every second, minute, hour, day, month and year of it. I remember the times you’d just imitate my laugh, boobs and the way I react to things LOL. I read one of your cards and it mentioned how I’d get epically worried whenever the bell rang – and you just loved laughing at me haha. Gosh. Though we only have 2 months of school left together, I hope we’ll make it the best two months that we have experienced during the 6 years of our time together. =) Imma buy you a cage of pigeons and you can do what you want with it ;) hahaha ! LOL. Remember that time we kept laughing at my glue stick in year 8 Maths because it landed upright?!?! Hahahaha. Our minds are screwed xD

Chris ~
LOL, I’m not going to lie – There isn’t much to write. We don’t talk that much nor confide in each other, but that doesn’t make you any less than the good friend you already have come to be. Let’s see, my earliest memory of you was in year 7 and how we were “dating” LOL why must it be called that? I think we only held hands once and then you ran off or something LOL. Any who, Christopher Chu (haha that rhymes) – Okay, I’ll be serious now. You’re a very caring person and you’d go great lengths to make sure any of use are okay, and I really admire and appreciate that. Thankyou Chris =)

Khanh ~
The introverted young boy has blossomed into a beautiful man who’s talented in the arts of poetry, dance, visual imagery and … in the bedroom… LOL! Every time I think about you one of your sex jokes creep into my ear, for example “How’s the twins?” or “I can warm your muffins”, LOL you foul boy! Our first dance lessons were also really awesome – it was the best time where we truly got to know one another & lemme tell you, I definitely like what I see! You sexy beast. You’re brilliant and wise – and you create the most beautiful dances one of which where I was even brought to tears. Hahaha! I want to start off with this – and I have no idea if I’m thinking too much – I’m so sorry that I hurt you and that I wasn’t there for you in your times of need, I was being an idiot and only saw the wrongs and how things came to be. My attitude last year was so unsupportive compared to everyone else and it must’ve angered you right? I’m truly disappointed in myself for letting you down. Awwwwww I’m going to have to kiss and hug you until you’re overwhelmed with glee! I love and appreciate you so much Khanh, you always know how to make me smile, laugh and… get awkward…I just wish that I know that I can make you happy. These next two months are our last together – and let’s spend it with much laughter & creating sexual innuendos!

Rowena ~
My little Chinese angel – You’re feisty, super sweet and SUPERBLY SEXY ! Dammit girl you’ve got everything in that little body of yours. Talent, Beauty and A Good heart. It’s kinda depressing that you’re catching up to my height =( you’re meant to be our little cutie! Thankyou for being you, I would not have loved any other Rowena, except for you Rowena Sy. Wait a sec, I should avoid all other Rowenas LOL because I only want to remember one Rowena for the rest of my life. Your patience is so enduring, it’s like a mother’s, we have spent countless hours in the past just talking, talking and talking – thankyou for hearing me out. You’ve made my life a happier place. I love our little seductive winks @ school but I don’t love it when you walk off from me when you think I’m a lesbian. I’m not =(. Awww, as I’m writing about you I feel a gigantic urge to call you up right now and tell you that I love you. Honey, every time you’re around – I absolutely love it ! I hate it when you’re away from school, I become rather unsettled and a little sad because you’re not there. I guess I know how you feel in regards to the days I’ve been absent. Oh one too many. If there was a time machine –I’d transport through time back to year 9 before anything happened to me – and I’ll plough through everyday for you, knowing now that it didn’t have to be that bad at all if I had just told you, actually all of you, what was going on. But on a positive note: Baby I love you. =)

Thanh ~
Hahaha. Why do I get the feeling that you’re going to do this:
Squeal, chase after me and once again attempt to flash my bum-bum. LOL I love you. Thanh, since day one, I knew you were a dominate girl – I guess that’s why I love picking on you because dominate people don’t like being teased. Isn’t that right Suicidal butterly ;) LOL ! If I must remember you for something it’d be everything from Korean flags and DOE camps to the word “stuff” and Asian city bums who don’t look as good as actors with face lifts. We’ve had many disagreements over the years, but I’ll just blame it on our personality clash because that’s as legit as it get babe! LOL How can I repay you for all your generosity? All your honesty? All your nuturing? And of course the exercise regimes promptly initiated when you chase after me with your fist, unfailingly, threatening me with ..a.. beating? I love you :) LOL! I remember that a few years ago we were playing sport on the football field and you just jumped & I automatically blurted, “Ooh! Did you feel that earthquake?!” – I think I died shortly after that feat. That isn’t surprising. I’ve died and came back to life on countless occasions because of you Thanh. I can’t wait to do it again! Hahaha. You know I love you, especially how you were so understanding and willing to help me that day in the library. Your presence in my life is certainly a much appreciated and loved part of my life.

And finally, the last person on the list ~

Vee ~

You: “Hey are you Margaret?”
Me: “Yeah, I am – who are you?”
You: “Hi my name’s Vee, I’m My Uyen’s friend”Me: “She’s my best friend from Sunday school!”

Please forgive any missing phrases, exclamation marks and whatnot. At least I remembered the jist of it! Vee, out of the whole group, you’re the only person who I recall meeting =) So, that just makes me happy because I’m not “senile” as I supposed after all hahaha furthermore it is a very cherished memory. Girl we have been through it all haven’t we? Boys have tried to tear us apart, Girls have tried to tear us apart --- that’s terrible. And I even on one occasion tried to tear us apart, it’s up there on the list of “My mistakes – now learn from it biatch!”. For 5 months we were total strangers – yeah, we agreed on “mutual” – yet still it was so…unfamiliar and unbelievably excruciating – LOL but look at us headstrong Capricorns, how our stubborn sides created a 5 month rift in our friendship, and any bet it had distressed the others in the group too, and I take it that I was mainly responsible for that. But you know what, I’m glad that it’s over – I’m not necessarily happy that such an ordeal occurred between us but I learnt a lot about myself during that time and hopefully, you got a chance to learn about yourself too because what happened was definitely an eye opener for our inner selves. I learnt that I needed to speak the truth about what was happening to me (which I finally did with you on the phone =] thanks again for that, it was our first conversation in 5 months. The tears were inevitable (L), I learnt that I needed to let my guard down – I’ve been holding it up against everyone for so long, it had become a habit, I learnt that I needed to be more understanding, particularly assuming less and asking more, especially regarding the bias of story-telling. Ahhh! I could go on forever – what I feel right now is that I’m still not putting enough effort, I really miss the close bond I used to have with you and the group – but I guess it’s up to me to really reinforce that relationship back into play. Time to get crack-a-lackin’! Just, thankyou, thankyou, thankyou, for being there for me, for putting up with me at my worst, for helping this friendship endure the worst tribulations and creating smiles & laughs out of thin air, like magic! I could never, ever, take you for granted again – I realise when it hurts you, it hurts me by tenfold.



Oxoxoxox

HAPPY 6 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP GUYS !

Written during the HSC TRIALS :)

Photo caption: Aww, Jenny Dao i was attempting to create a love heart with you neatly framed within it ;( FAIL ! LOL

Listening to: "Joe - No one else comes close"
Mood: Utterly exultant :)
& Why?: Because everything is exceptionally sensational & I lurve it to itty bitty bits - I wouldn't change anything :)

Hello my darlings (Who am I kidding?! No one has the time to read these anymore – ngaw, Kristy, you’re a special exception)

For those who know me considerably well know that I say gay shit all the time and this will reinforce that notion: If you’re reading this right now I sincerely encourage you to comment on this blog. It shall give me an indication to whether or not I should bother keeping this site updated or even running. And to avoid any misapprehensions I shall rewrite that in more colloquial terms, “Can you just tell me if you read these rants cause I don’t like writing for no one!”

Okay let’s go through a quick run through of my HSC life via several, if not many, dot points:

v The TRIALS has kept me preoccupied with school. As they do.
v My ex will only talk to be when he’s drunk … LOL I find that hilarious
v I have one close friend which has not solved an issue for 6 years *frowns*
v My family is delightful.
v CCNF & other friends who sit in our “circle” – I am at this present moment cheerless about our last term together… It’s terribly heart-rending
v To all my friends that do not attend Fairvale High – I can’t wait to party at the end of this year ! We’ll be a boisterous bunch ! Party hard ! Ohh yeah baby.

Wow. My life only consists of 1…2..3.4…5…6.. Only 6 dot points! I suppose this suggest that I ought to “get out more” and boost the level of fulfilment in my life. I only have 6 aspects of it.. ..shit.. (make note: That 6 is going to multiply into a dazzling 36 --- yeah 6 times 6 biatch)

Besides the globe’s ubiquitous supply of cantankerous callous cretins I doubt there is anything that I abhor at the moment (that’s because I suck at premonitions) despite the on-going cruelty of the world and the bastards that circumvent life’s punishments and escape with robberies, murders and worst yet, deteriorate universal ethics (Hitler you’re an amoral dickhead how dare you instigate that horrendous holocaust – I wonder where your sepulchre resides…..you better had hope it’s concealed). Nonetheless I attempt to refrain my demeanour from being too emotionally involved.... ngaw, but there are times when indifference evaporates and I can’t help but whimper a little especially when so many innocent individuals are meeting their untimely end. We’ll miss you Michael Jackson ! <3 Oh YOU WERE THA MAN !! You deserve billions and billions of posthumous awards :) :) :)

On a more positive note, I do hope that I get into the UTS Bachelor of Midwifery course. Pregnant women, babies & the endless exposure to the miracle of life – Hell yeah! That’s how I roll (H)! Moreover, I’ll be paid good, no wait, awesome money for loving what I do – making sure all y’all babies turn out fine & dandy but most importantly touching your wives Ooooh! ;) (I’m kidding you homophobic idiots). “Life is Beautiful” – (FYI! That’s such a splendid movie. My thanks goes out to Lentini for if it wasn’t for his passionate and persistent harassment, I would not have given it a second glance - i love ya asshole! xD ). On a more negative note, I’m going to miss school :( & wearing a uniform – gone are the “Madeleine, I’m Madeleine” days where we had to line up in two straight lines & wore skirts everyday (for 6 fucking years-where winter marked the season of great suffering. Luckily for us girls it occurs once a year :] )

Okay, I think I should cease to continue with this post (I'll probably witness another dawn soon. Oh my gosh) – I had just randomly considered writing a paragraph showing my sympathy towards those penguins who I envisage to bravely endure life alongside killer whales, sea lions, a sea of squawking partners & chicks relentlessly demanding regurgitated shrimp (LOL! The guttural image is making me laugh- it’s almost endearing) and WHO live through “winter” all year. But I still think wearing a skirt all year is up there with a penguin’s life. They don’t have perverted little shits looking up their bums. Can you see all this nonsensical crap spewing out of my mouth? It elucidates of my "gay" disposition. I hope it isn’t irremediable. I’m getting bothered and I need to look at an epic variegated artwork, maybe a picture of Megan Fox shall suffice LOL – anything else that is remotely insipid will dampen my mood. PEACE OUT ! <3
Photo caption: Vee & I imitating the epitome of "Asian" --which in actuality is an Italian... LOL

Oxox

p.s. LOL if you found this a poignant post, but I love you all the same ;)
p.s.s. Kristy ! I like this word too: “Emancipation” & hopefully, you’ll love this word in time :) aye aye aye ! hahaha, Good luck Girl !
p.s.s. That was the longest rant of my life. I hope it never repeats again else I'd become such a naggy wife in the future.
p.s.s.s. I'm writing this at 3.30am ! :( Sleeping patterns are so screwed during HSC.

Memorable photos :)

oxox

*Deep Sigh

Goodness Gracious Me ! :(

It’s an estimated 2 months til the finale of our high school life and to be honest, I’m terribly dreading this end. I’ll miss school dammit! Needless to say it has become one of the most sensational experiences I’ve ever encountered – and it doesn’t go without saying that my friends, who are the ever so enthralling & loving bunch, are responsible for these years of mighty bliss. You darling angels – we were always the nuttiest Asians around (:

Remember all those games our screwed up little minds invented? Invisible basketball, pacman, “running in a circle’, snapping the fence pole (we are fatshits) ghost train with the big ass elastic, skits, shoes flying in the air, “Ask Jason the Time”, CCNF awards, perving at Cathy’s crush on the hill, silent library, walking around with a machete on New Years chopping trees for firewood and many more proactive activities (: Our memories shall live on forever ! & to commemorate such a spectacular era I have posted up a variety of photos (because there’s too many – ask Vee for them) to tickle your memory, and hopefully .. leave you dying of laughter ;)

Ciao ciao ! Enjoy !

The Disappointments of Life :)

Okay, a lot has happened over the past month & it's still going...
Unlike other blog posts, I'm going to be as clear and concise as i can be. No funny shit :)
So, this month i met this guy, let's call him Fred, on a birthday cruise party for my close friends.
I thought hey, Fred seems cute, and he saved me from a drunken friend, so let's add him on facebook. For the next 2 weeks, Fred & I were talking and oh dear lord...

Day 1: He was already sweet talking. Saying these lines which were previously used on my close girlfriend ( I bet he didn't know we were girlfriends haha). Saying shit like "We'll get to know eachother, and maybe in the future..you know, i could ask you out". Fuck off. I tried to be as patient and understanding as i could be - but i saw through all this... Fred may be sweet talking to make me like him, but it didn't work -

the days following incurred the following issues:
~ His whole family, his own, cousins, uncles, aunties, grandparents and what not knew about me and wanted to meet me. At first it seemed cute, but then it got creepy and i was overwhelmed with all this expectation.

~ He was telling people that we were seeing each other, but he ignored the fact that i JUST met him. I remember asking, " I don't think we're seeing each other, seeing as we just met" and he's like "...."

~ Talking about his connections, and them coming down for a fight if the boys wanted to hit him. Big mistake, I looked down on him in an instant, how dare you use other people to solve your own problems. It was so uncomfortable listening to him talk about the guys like that.

~ Lying to me: That really did it. When Vorn warned me about him, all Fred could say was "I don't know why he's saying this". Well i know now, you're a fucking paedophile. Flirting with little year 9 mmc girls, and little girls in other states. Bullshit you were the captain of the school basketball team & bullshit to your fucking no. 5 jersey. Bullshit you've only had 3 girls all up in your lifetime when you were with 6 last year. You're a lying bitch.

~ Sweet talking. It sounded rehearsed, like it's been used on many girls.

~ Making me feel sorry for him because of the boys: the issue about them not trusting him. It's his fault. I should've known better once he said shit about hitting the boys with his connections if "they ever came after him" i shouldve told him what i thought right then and there: That's he's a fucking idiot and doesn't even deserve to know them if he even ever wants to treat them like that.

And the shittest thing of all, is that i really thought Fred was a nice decent guy and everything i said i meant, i did think he was awesome, but fuck that. Who knows what other shit he's been saying to up his status. This is the second filo i've met that tried his moves on me, and all i can say is one thing. I'm not even going to consider any more filos, you may think this is racist.. but you're not me. Fucking Fred thinks sweet talking and fucking off is the best way to get chicks? He's such a faggot to girls. I feel sorry for all the girls last year - and they're so young too.

I'm so glad that the boys warned me about him. So so glad.

Wedding Bliss

Let's cut to the chase! I havent dressed up for anything for like maybe 2 months now?
SO I WENT TO MY FAMILY FRIEND'S WEDDING; It was just pure awesomeness. Mainly because our table was just hilariousssssssss.

On our table was:
Me
Nhan
Linda
Dom
Blackie/steven
Steven
John
John's brother; um, Anthony? I think =S
Minh

So, we just pretty much lead on this young waiter and by the end of it he totally asked Linda for her no. by writing it on a tissue underneath a bunch of serviettes he randomly gave us. If he ever called, the poor bloke would be calling Dom. Hehehehehe

The rest of the night we were singing along to OLDSCHOOL HITS or laughing at a woman who coun't sing "HOW DO I LIVE" for shit!

Dancing was so awesome -- until the DJ went tribal

LOL. it was a good night, i havent had that much fun for ages =) THANKYOU GUYS

Right now.

Right now, I'm really enjoying life.


Azaaaaaa! ;)

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!

So, it literally has been officially 2 months since that dreadful event. Let's run down on some of what has happened since:

* Okay, i think ive lost 1 great someone, 1 good someone and 1 .. really biased someone.
* Mending with 1 different great someone
* Grounded for the whooping whole year
- LMAO, i laugh about it now. Epic Tale. Wowzers.
* Been missing out on everyone's special days. Gosh-dammit!
* Realised that there's more to the "Truth".
* Totally buggered by the whole Bf-craze. Not bothered & Don't bother. Hate it.
* Spent heaps of time with family: Love them even more.
* Made a bet: If i like/see/go out with anyone i owe the opposition 20 bucks per person. Why you must ask? Cause i know i'm going to win & i have the upper hand =D See? Im grounded= no one time!
* I was reminded that i have some of the greatest friends in the world a girl could possibly ask for. And they know it too. They were with me through thick and thin - even through my worse time. Now i really like Marilyn Monroe's famous quote! Go babe!


I'm not depressed. I had a rough time. I was just out-of-it. And this *points above* is what happened since :) Im really good compared to before, and I'm really sorry for making you guys worry: I was just needed time for myself and you can't blame me for that.. right? WELL! Now I'm great, but there are times when im just like meh. and those are the times when I'm with people who i don't really connect with anymore and it's not that i don't care because i do care, but it has just happened and i'm not gonna chuck a sulk (I'm not going to lie: This stuff happens a lot @ school and it's my fault as well). Drifting is a part of life and i accept it, it also means im growing closer to someone else; which in this case is my mum.

Now the people who i really enjoy being around with are the people who are on the same wavelength as me =) & i totally love it. Most of these people who i share this awesome bond with is like... kinda separated from me. The Grounding Law plays a part in this. But i don't mind as much now, cause i know deep inside, i still love them even if theyre a million miles away, and even if i can't talk to them on months on end. I still think of them the same. And love them the same. I'm not gonna chuck a fit by telling them "OMG WE DRIFTEDDDDDD WE NEED TO FIX THIS!"

Cause it's not true. Physically,yes. LOL of course yes. But mentally, no. When it comes to the point where i dont remember a thing about them, then yes i will say ---Wow.. We've drifted * worried face*. Other than that, we're living all our own lives and having fun at that as well! And when we do get to see or talk to each other, i swear it's the greatest feeling in the world. I can say this for the boys of De Lasalle ..meaning - Matthew, Tim, Peter & Thomas Twins and Luke. We both know we rarely see or hear from each other, but when we do -- it's great fun!

Apparently according to scientific research and whatnot, I'm going through the roughest time of the hormone-crazed phase:
1. I'm discovering who i am
2. I'm discovering who i want to become
3. Im tackling that annoying HSC
4. Friends
5. Family
6. Life's lessons: What a bitch -- but its very interesting though ;)

I think i can only ever cross one thing off that list until the day i fall off a cliff: Thats def. gonna be the HSC. Everything else is occurring and totally ongoing -----

Love it don't you?The only thing that makes it a whole lot easier is: Become a nun.

You have friends all the time! You've discovered you're a nun. And you've discovered what you want to be which is .. a nun. You dont need a U.A.I to be a nun, you just need the bible. You're family with everyone and you TEACH people life's lessons. Wow! My mum has often attempted at persuading me to join the nunnery. She had ALMOST convinced me, but the idea of having cute bundles of joy soon relieved myself of my mother's dream. I know for a fact that she doesn't want Grandchildren anytime soon:

1) She sees her mates painstakingly tend to those bundles until their old of age on a daily basis. In other words, her friends has little left of a social life and my mother has no intention of speeding up an anti-social phase. Abstinence has convinced all of us children.

2) Childbirth.. What more can i say? LOL yes there is. IT HURTS LIKE A DOG RUNNING AWAY WITH YOUR completed HOMEWORK.

Touchy. Anyway, Good Morning Sunshine. I'm back in the buzz!